Last entry

Let me make a last entry, I have went to the cyber counsellor interview today. It was not successful but it was definitely a fruitiful interview that I ever had.

Hi, Everyone.

Hi everyone, due to some personal reason. Sorry, I won't be blogging anymore.

Will this opportunity gives me a chance to fulifil my dream?

Recently, I have came across a website that they are looking for online cyber counsellor volunteer at Marine Parade Family Service Centre. They are looking for volunteer to train their next batch of cyber counsellors. They are running a online youth chat counselling program called "metoyou". I have called to find out more. That person told me that if I'm interested he can put me to the person-in-charge to have an interview with me to see whether I'm suitable for it. I had agree for the interview. If successfully selected, I will undergo a free training in basic counselling skills that consist 4 modules and have to complete 1 year of volunteering after training.

Hopefully, this opportunity will give me a chance to fulifil my dream although it is not a occupation.

A very patience doctor

Here I would like to comment something good about my doctor. She is Miss Theresa Lee, a nice and patience doctor. Why I would say that? because actually she should have discharge me out from Sayang Clinic for the end of the two years since 2006 that I have started and end in 2008.
and I should be seeing another doctor by now in Clinic B.That is their rules, I think so. But she still see me, I think that because maybe she know me well, and because of my sensitiveness, I need a doctor who can be really understanding of my feeling when consulting me. And I am very gateful to her, all along I have quite a lot of problems troubling her and I think that most doctors can'tstand it when the patient has a lot of problems and questions they want to know. And I think that she has done too much already because she has been seeing me for 5 years and this year going to 6 years soon. I think she will be discharing me soon if I have a stable job this year
and can manage my life smoothly. I strongly recommend this doctor to everyone. She is a very kind and caring doctor.

Problems in my life.....

I dislike those aunties who always mind other people's business.....can't they just mind their own business. Found that they always like to goosip people's families and people's jobs...especially my neighbours living around next door to me. Now when I see them never greet them unlike last time.

Second things is since we are a small children I everyday will hear my grandma nagging and talking a lot all about her suffering and her negative feeling....and because of that my sister and I are stress when taking care of her. Sometimes, we really cannot tolerate of her anymore.

Last is everyone in my family members are negative except my aunt who is the only one is a really positive and strong person and she is a person who can solve most of the problem in our life. But I just afraid that she can't take it one day, because she also has her own illness and it is a very serious one.

About me.....

I am a introvert person, but I have a complex personality that sometimes people can mistaken me as extrovert. I can be both in between but my real self is introvert. I tend to talk less to people when I meet them first time. When I know them better, I will be very extrovert. Maybe because of my complex personality, people will have some conflict with me at the first time. I tend to trust my instinct and feeling often. And I am a careful and detail person. What I like to do in my free time is sitting alone in the room and meditate, I often have an idea of how to solve a problem after I mediate. And it definitely will help me make a good decision. I like to speak out of my mind when something bother me but at the same time I also like the feeling of privacy of keeping things to myself. At times I will be realistic too, and I am quite practical in life.

As for love life, I think I may not be that realistic...hmmm...maybe just in between. What's the definition of true love? I think both party have to make an effort to make it as true love. Or else the other party, he/she may be loving the person deeply but the feeling will still be gone if the person does not love him/her. And of course I'm a dreamer I tend to have some unrealistic dreams and wish for miracle to happen. I believe that there's a lot of dreams and miracles will happen in life. Because gods have a plans for all of us and I tend to trust gods often. I believe gods is fair to everyone. Lastly, I hope that everyone has a happy life in the future.

Prefer to work outside although I don't prefer that much.

I often have this same questions that appear in mind when I have a job, I will wonder whether the people there working are nice, easy to get along, won't gossip too much, won't push their work to other people and so on and so on. But found that almost all working places have this kind of politices . For the previous working place that I have worked with my mum friend. To be honest, there is a little conflict among my colleagues but overall they are nice and quite simple. Can say it is a very suitable working place for everyone to work in. About the conflict with my mum friend, until now I still don't have an answer whether she is lying to me or not. But we still remain normal friend, sending msg to each other occasionally.

Unless I work alone like home based job or I will still face this kind of situations. But I don't think that I will choose a home based job because it is not quite a stable job to choose as unless you be your own boss. I will still continue to find a job that work outside and try to adapt the environment of the working place....and most important is I can do my job efficiently. That's what every bosses they want people to be like this. Hope that I can really fulifil these requirements.

I think this is the best way to go.

My friend suggested maybe I am suitable for a photocopy job. I have headed her advice and tried to search from the internet to find places that have photocopy assistant jobs. And I have found one and called.....that's person actually told me in the first place that he think maybe don't have vacancies of it but heard from his voice sounds agreeable that he will call back to me again. So now still waiting for his reply. Hope that this time round, I can find a right job. As for the F&B job, I have to give a reply to Mr Koh and tell him that I may not want it because I'm not quite comfortable to face so many customers when I'm serving. That is the main reason that I don't quite prefer a F&B line and also because that I do not smile often and I sense that people will find me weird in some ways. Because of that, I seldom go to crowered places now. I really hope Mr Koh will understand my position.

As for the Cert in Psychology course, I have made an enquiry and have received that's person reply....and she has told me that Nitec holder also can apply for it but have to take a English test from the British Council. I have found it quite hard to go for it because have to make a target of a scores in their test in order to apply for it. That's means they'll pick and choose the best candidates. For my English, I can say that I have improved slightly a bit better than last time but that's not good enough. I think I should improve a lot, lot more so can really have the confidence to take the English test.

For now, I think I will concentrate on finding a job first, and as for interest that's not so quite important now.

I'm clueless.

Which path should I go? I felt clueless of my future. My life is like living each day, count each day. Should I wait for somebody to help me decide which way should I go? All these years have been going merry-go-round, doing one job and hopping to another. I don't wish to carry on this way. It won't make things turn up better. And I'm afraid that I can't find a permanent job. My parents are in their 50s. How many years should I go wasted? I can't waste my time anymore! Not to mention that I want to pursure the psychology course for interest. The first things is finding the right job to work for years. I always wanted to do admin job but everyone told me that maybe I'm not suitable for it. I have been trying my luck to find a simple part time office job on the job positing website Gum Tree that not involve a lot of tasks. But can't seen to have a luck to work in admin field. My mum friend even told me that I can't find a office job that like last time I had worked. And it's true of what she said.....I have went though a lot of jobs online to find a admin job but can't seen to find one suitable. Maybe I should not think of pursuring Office Skills course but this is the career that I really want to pursure. So in the meantime I'm doing some self-improvement and looking for part time packer job position. Is that the right choice? Can your tell me?

An impossible dream....do your think it will come true?

Read from many self-help books that said we should pursure our dream even thought it is an impossible dream. My dream is to study a cert in psychology as a hobby, and I have found one from MDIS webpage. And I have made an enquiry whether is it possible for me to study as I have only GCE N Level (Normal Technical Stream) and a ITE Nitec in Info-com certs. My sister said that if only I am going to do it as a career then it's worth to go study it. I think mostly people will agree with what she said and I also agree with her too. But maybe if I study it, it can turn me to face the world in a positive manner so maybe my illness will slowly recover and can live positively. That's my goal in this life and also my interest to study it. I hope I can have this impossible dream to come true.

Can I really do admin job?

My sister encouraged me to take a Nitec in office Skills as I'm really wanted to do admin job. And I'm really regret that when I'm in ITE, I took Info-com instead of Office Skills because it is the most popular course at that time. But I'm not sure whether I can really do admin job because it requires a lot of concentration and this is what my ex-boss told Mr Koh about it that I had made quite a lot of mistakes in accurancy when I'm performing data entries. And I'm really at a loss to choose between F&B OR Admin job. So i make myself a choice I visited online to try my luck to find a part time packer job since Mr Koh said that they have less part time job of this kind. And I would also like to ask him for advice whether I can take office skills course to improve myself so that I can work admin job in the future.

Can anyone tell me whether I should take this course? I need your advise. Please give me some suggestions. Thank you. :)