A good Sunday

Sorry for those that I ask you all to remove my blog link because of some reason. And thank for yr all understanding. =) Well I am quite fine now......and have a very good Sunday with my family because of Ghost month offering prayer and we need to pray to god at home. Have a nice lunch and long chat with my family, and we laughed and joked happily together......and seen that we quite care with one another even though our family ties is not that strong. And today really make me put all my trouble beside after a stressful and tiring week of work that I'm struggling.

Hope that tmr will be a fine day for me. God bless me=)

My important point to her

Today is sunday........happy....happy...happy!!!! At least I can take a one day break and don't see her face. But the problem of me and her always on my thoughts. Because right now even though I don't trust her again. But I still believe that she got really true to me in the past or else she won't recommend me this job. Now I just have to see that whether she will find fault and harm me next time or will continue to treat me well like last time. Because I got question her whether she got really one day harm me? And she keep saying that she never ever do this thing before.......but everything she say to me got some loopholes...and sometimes also no logic. Then my reply to her is: Ok and I told her that now i believe you this time....I hope you won't harm me. And my important point to her is just to warn her that. Hopefully she still can be like last time.

I won't trust her anymore

Now I start to realise this words...never judge the person by its cover. I think I must learn to not trust ppl easily.....because you never know what the person will do to you. And I must be very stupid to tell so much things to my mum friend. Sad to say this things out......she is really a good lier...a very calm and steady lier. And so I then decide to change the blog address....because she know too much things about me......and she still dare to say that she is just protecting me and want me to tell all the things that I handling because of my carelessness and not alert. As I said that I think I will not quit the job...because I want to know how will she treat me and want to test whether is she really treating me good. But I know that one day I will also quit the job but not now. So now I just need to see whether what next will she do. And I will only quit if I can't tolerate anymore.....right now I'm still feeling ok and I will just do my work properly and talk less to her. Hopefully I can do until 1 year.....still got 5 more months to go. Hope that I can do it so next time I apply for another job is much easier.

I think I won't resign my job

Sorry change my blog address...because I know the person is visiting my blog. And I got actually talk to her about the matter of the summary report even though she was very persuasive that she said that she really did not took it......but i still don't trust her....because she has lie to me a lot of things. And what i want to tell you all that i think i will continue my job because it was her to ask me to don't quit....i don't know why....but i think its because she afraid my boss will ask me why i quit. Anyway now I felt that she won't find fault to me now.....but I will still be very careful of her.

This will do us both good

I think I have already know the answer of this problem. And my decision is to resign the job. Because I really felt very insecure of this colleague and I no longer trust her anymore. And because she is my friend so I think no point continue working with her because if i don't leave she will also find fault with me. And no point carry on this job even though the boss really treat me very well.

Because I know that if I leave the company, this will do us both good. And I have thought this problem for a long time before making this difficult decision. If it is others and not her.....I think I won't leave this job. So don't know this is a better decision but I think this is the best way.

Hope that things can be solve

MC for two days.....due to stomach pain and some fever and body aching. Well I think maybe due to the weather changing, or maybe I eat something wrong. haha....But i think i must have stress up of all the problems coming. Sick also good can have a good break. Hmm.....I'm going to read some self-improvement book again to motivate myself or else keep on thinking of negative things also not good. Maybe got some tips from the book will help me solve my problem.........I hope god will give me some clue. Or else things will remain a secret.

And right now I shall not think of anything just having a good rest and everything shall wait for tomorrow to happen because worry also cannot help. =)

I'm in difficult situation!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt like taking a long break.......really felt tired sometimes. I think the most problems we have in job is with colleague. Now I know why people want to early retire. Really felt like giving up. But give up now....how am i going to find another similar job. And now I still don't know which way to go......I'm in difficult situation....and really I never came a cross this type of office polities....This is my first time have this type of problem. And I'm thinking about this problem a very long time. And I have talk to my sister and my occupation therapist about it.....the only good thing is I felt much better....but the problem can't be solve.....How am I going to FIND THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEM....and right now I still can't jump to conclusion......because this will only make things worse between me and my colleague. And now I think the best way to do is seek help from religious leader and at the same time pray hard to god that all these problems can be solve. Or else I won't be able to work in peace...if things get worse...I think that I'm not lucky enough to have this job. Right now live it to fate.

Disappointment with someone

I felt really disappointment with someone, and I really don't believe she is that kind of person. How can someone who is very good and nice to you and turn up to be another person.

This is what my aunt say that when working outside....won't have any real friend....and just can be colleague and can't fully trust each other. At first I don't believe what my aunt said.....but now I somehow believe it this word. Because something shocking make me don't trust her......but I won't say out here....sorry.=(

I hope this person is not what I think now.......right now I can't find of any solution to solve this problem....but one day I may talk to her about it and find out the problem. Hope that god will give me some clue and solve this problem........pray hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!