My mood

how to say leh...me still feeling nervous all the time watever i go...i become less and less dun wan to talk with people already..wat to do? because i afraid of ppl comment and i'm not a good talker...i feel inferior. And i'm not veri confident of things i do...i feel afraid and anxiety that i have wet palms that my hand could feel a bit shaking. God tell me wat should i do...how can i overcome my fear of ppl giving me comments and ppl looking of me. I feel helpless but somehow i managed to calm myself out and look postively. I wan to be normal..i dun wan ppl to look at me in such a weird way. Tell u fankly i really care abt my image and wat i do...and how ppl will think of me...i wan my confident. And i already told myself dun care abt others thinking and be myself but i just can't do it....and i really wanted to go to study....but i veri easily stress. I have lots of things in my mind that is too long to say out loud! I going crazy already! Everything that i do i always tell myself must get things rite....and really most of the things i really got think and tell myself dun be so blur sotong! i really trying veri hard to do wat i can! but i hate of this way must force myself to be alert all the time. My mind is blur like a blank paper but i wanna change it to a full of words that i can written into a beautiful ways that tell me more abt myself. Wow i managed to say it such a nice way...oops am i stupid or clever...i'm also not sure. I wanna live a place that onli belong to me alone. I hate this world full of hypocrite..liers, cheaters and flirters. Why human is like that? I'm going to tell u here i hate ppl scolding,argue,taking advantage and cheater me ....i hate i hate i just can't managed to forget all these things that happen in my real life.